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| Trump Sees Light at End of Tunnel |
I know, the title makes no sense whatsoever while making perfect sense...this whole Coronavirus Pandemic has left me numb yet filled with rage at those who have contributed to making it far worse than it had to be with Donald J. Trump at the top of the list. FACT...I was severely sexually, emotionally and physically abused as a child, and I hate Trump far more than my abusers. I wish him nothing but the worst that Karma has to offer, wish to see him forced to suffer ten times as worse as those he has hurt ever suffered, and his children should be standing in line awaiting their turn. Don't bother counseling me about turning the other cheek...done doing that, and we all saw how well Michelle's advice worked out for us in 2016 when she said, "When they go low we go high"...NO, when they go low, get out your brass knuckles and knock their fucking teeth out. To harsh? Then don't read my entry. I am tired of crooks, liars, cheats and bullies winning, tired of them running America and oppressing over half of our population because of their own greed and corruption.
We are being warned that the next week (or two) will be bad, worse than Pearl Harbor or 9/11...give it to us straight, what are you models telling you that you are trying to candy coat before you feed us a portion of the ugly truth. Just how many deaths is Donald J Trump administration expecting in the next two weeks? America has a right to straight forward answers to this question. Of those expected deaths, how many could have been prevented if Donald Trump had not failed so miserably, and more importantly was his failure on some levels deliberate? You know it was America and no I will not forgive those who voted to put him in office, nor will I forgive Bernie Sanders folks that decided to vote for Jill Stein or even Donald Trump to protest our candidate...YOU GAVE THE FUCKING SUPREME COURT to the rabid far right you idiots. Lastly, those of you who did not bother to vote (not counting those who's voted was/is suppressed) I loathe you more than all of the above.
Some things I have witnessed that will forever be etched in my mind....
Today I went out for a walk with my camera. Walking down to Memorial Park I saw a little girl crying as her father held her in his arms and tried to explain why she could not use the slide or swing in a swing. Her "But why Daddy" broke my heart. My walk takes me past a small, flimsy shelter one of our homeless folks built to have a place in out of the rain. Not sure who had done it, but someone had brought him a bag of basic food supplies...there are angels among us. A woman sat crying on a park bench nestled along the hudson river...I asked if she was OK? Her reply..."my Mom just went on a ventilator"...WOW...what do you say?
I'd love to say I'm doing well through all of this...truth is I am not. Anger, sadness, grief and my depression all fighting for control of my soul. Other than for my small walks I sit all alone in my basement apartment listening to the news in much the same fashion I did in the aftermath of 9/11 as I feel I have an obligation to bear witness to all of this regardless of the cost to my own sanity. I am afraid...afraid for Nyack, afraid for New York, and afraid for America. I am frightened that I might get the Coronavirus, but more frightened at what happens if I had to go to the hospital...I'm 64 so I am no longer guaranteed to get the Medical Help I would need to stay alive...funny how you can hate the life you live, but the thought of losing it, or someone else taking it away angers you to the core.
I need a drink...NO, I need a fucking drink, a good stiff fucking drink.
Stay Safe everyone.
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